I woke up this morning with a heavy burden in my heart. The problem for me quite honestly is that I didn’t know which actual situation in my current life was creating this heaviness in my spirit. Perhaps, they all were. My husband sensed it and got up and asked me, “Are you alright?” “I’m not sure,” I responded. I didn’t want to worry him, but I could not express the sensitivity of my being. It was one of those sentiments that I could not share with anyone; but the Lord. I knew even then, that this was a prompting from the Lord.
I closed my closet door and began to call out to Him. I shared what I was sensing in the deep recesses of my heart. I called out for help. I called out for mercy. I called out for strength. I called out for peace of mind and heart. I called out and I called out some more. As I called out, I recognized the helplessness in me, and the empathy and compassion of the Lord.
I expressed my fears. I expressed my inadequacy. I expressed my doubts. I expressed my yearnings and my desires. The tears flowed and as they did, I began to wait. And, as I waited, I went to the Word. “I will instruct you and teach you in the way you should go; I will counsel you with my loving eye on you.” Psalm 32:8
This is the point that my tears turned from tears of fear to tears of peace. “He knows,” I told myself. I thought of Joshua. After Moses’ death he was assured by God, that He would not fail him nor abandon him. The responsibility Joshua assumed was monumental. God told him, “I’ve commanded you to be strong and brave. Don’t ever be afraid or discouraged! I am the Lord your God, and I will be there to help you wherever you go.” Joshua 1:9
I know that my sensitivities and desires will not always be answered as I would want them to. And, in essence, I must wait, and rest assured by faith, that God knows what He is doing and what in fact, it is, that I need most at the time I call out to him. I am at peace with this morning’s prompting. And, for that, I bless the Name of the Lord.
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